Random Thoughts I've had lately - a bit of a fun post!

Hi friends! Luke and I are currently on holiday in Rye, but I still wanted to make sure I got some blog posts out this week as I feel like the content has been looking a little bare lately. Anyway, I've been collating a list on my phone about random thoughts I've had over the past few weeks and I thought I'd be vulnerable and share them with you all!

And don't worry, I will make posts about all the fun things we got up to down in the

and there will be vlogs to come (I hope).

Also to preface this post, this is a bit of an intimate look into my mind as of late and fair warning, I've been taking lots of painkillers to deal with my tooth infection (the root canal is in progress and going back on the 14th August for stage 2) so bare with me here and why content might be lacking.

Random Thoughts I've had lately

• My tooth f*cking hurts.

• Should I get veneers? I wish I had a spare 20K LOL.

• I wonder what happened to the pupper Archie who our neighbours were looking after.

• Why are there so many scam calls in Australia?

• Why are some dog owners complete a**holes?

• Is my house haunted?

• I wish I could get the zoomies like dogs do.

• I wonder how Bella is doing (mum's cat).

• Will people EVER learn how to spell my name right? Even when they message me on Facebook and I have to correct them every time? It's literally right there OR write Ash.

• Why is my brain so hyperactive sometimes? Do I have ADHD? Or am I just weird? Or bored?

• Why would that person not have my Australian phone number?

• Why do I do things out of spite?

• I want cheese

• I wish people would ask me how I am, I don't mind if they tell me what's going on with their life but it would be nice if I was asked because I don't feel comfortable sharing unless I'm asked. Just once would be nice!

• Do people hate me?

• I'm feeling very disenchanted with sports at the moment because of how society is still really backwards with sex and gender. I might make a video about this because it's more complicated than you think! GAH.

• I hope Kamala wins.

• Would me reacting to videos on YouTube do well?

• I want to film more videos, would like to upload more than once a week and grow my subscribers.

• I'm sooooooooo hungry.

• The pigeons around here sound like they're chirping "take it off".

• Painkillers make me so drowsy.

• Why do random people posing as SEO experts keeping trying to add me on Facebook when I post in a group? Like f*ck off, I know you're a scammer.

• Why does the guy walking past my house looking like he's wearing snow gear?

• My teeth feel weird, ugh.

• Strong black tea tastes so gross.

• Why do we put milk in black tea but not fruit tea? Like I get that it would taste weird in fruit tea but has anyone done it?

• Why am I so tired today? I slept well.

• I am over feeling drowsy.

• I feel so judged sometimes for some of the things I do and things I work towards.

• This feels like a full circle moment. One of my most embarrassing moments in my life was when my high school boyfriend went through my drawers and found magazines I had made out of other cuts of magazines/my own writing pretending that I was an editor of a magazine sorta thing (and he made fun of it) and NOW, I write a blog LOL. But in that moment, I was like "glad you feel comfortable enough to do that but you don't have to make fun of me" sorta thing. I guess I've put that behind me now but I just thought it was a full circle moment.

• Why do I keep hearing footsteps when no one else is home?

• Am I crazy? Or am I just gaslighting myself?

• I don't wanna go to the doctor's tomorrow because it's so far away.

• Facebook marketplace has some WEIRD-A** SH*T!

• How do you just have no idea? How can you be so removed?

• Should I make a sex and gender video explaining it's not a f*cking a binary OR will I get so much hate I won't be able to handle it?

• Why do we lose our thoughts when we walk through a door?

• I'm so dizzy.

• Why is there so much drama on PET Instagram accounts??? It's not bloody reality TV.

• Bills suck. Adulting sucks.

• Can we win lotto please?

• I feel so alone right now.

• Damn, that was a scary dream. Can you forget it now please brain?

• I don't want to fall off this cliff.

• That lady made me feel weird (or I felt weird because of her) - I don't know how to word this without sounding like a narcissist. I am not a narcissist but I just don't know how to articulate it.

• I miss that bad-ass confident energy I had back in 2020-2021 when I wasn't scared to give f*cking lectures - where did that woman go?

• It feels like summer.

• I want to explore the world.

• I'm so unfit omg.

• I feel fat and ugly and I don't wanna feel like that.

• I just want something CRUNCHY to eat.

• This holiday isn't long enough.

• I'm worried about my teeth.

• I wish more people would support my content creation journey.

• I need a distraction.

• Water tastes nice in Rye.

• Benji is so cute.

• I wish I wasn't scared of so much. Will exposure therapy really help me?

• I wish more of my videos would get 30k views like that Instagram reel.

• I miss being confident enough to drive.

• Water tastes so good out in Rye.

• Ahh, scary fish.

• I like hot chocolate.

• I am gonna order a matcha for once (spoiler alert, I enjoyed it).

• I miss home but I also love my little family and life here. I wouldn't have done the content creation route if I still lived in NZ, I would have been too scared to.

• Why am I like this?

• I want a SMOOTHIE

• Holiday yoghurt is a thing ok!

• I love Canva but why does it have to be $40 a month?

• Note to self: watch more sunsets.

• Heights are scary. Don't drop your phone.

• I think my design skills are pretty good.

• I want a cheeseburger.

• I wish I could paint.

• What kind of noises do alpacas make?

• It's currently 9:47pm, I need to go to bed.

• Dryers are weird.

Okie that's all! Hope you enjoyed this fun little post.

See you soon,

Ash xoxo