Kia Ora friends and fam! Happy Saturday!
How are you going today? Last night, I started to feel incredibly down about myself and just really low and espresso depresso so of course the IBS flare-ups started, but Luke and I watched Love Actually - his favourite movie, yep he's the romantic in our relationship hehe to try and cheer up a bit. It kinda worked, some of the stories in that movie are lovely but others are just depressing. I remember watching it as a kid with my dad and being traumatized at half the scenes, but it's much more enjoyable as an adult with a better understanding of love and the world around me. I also like how Rowan Atkinson's character was originally meant to be an angel. Some people say that that's a conspiracy theory but the writers actually came out and said it was real. You can read more about it "here". I'm not that well-versed in Rom-Coms so Luke has been catching me up on a few, I think often they just piss me off because I'm so like "that's not how the world works" and prolly a little cynical too but I'm trying to give them more of a chance. I do miss watching Red Dwarf episodes now that we've finished that. Sci-fi and thriller are more my scene haha.
Anyway, with how I was feeling last night it meant that it took me ages to get to sleep. We also had pork chops and veges for dinner last night and thanks for Luke for cooking because I was so sore, tired, and sad. I don't know why I'm letting stupid little things get to me at the moment. Like literally my actions don't affect you, so why are you being so mean and condescending? Grr, some things just really grind my gears! So this morning, I woke up around 8am and it was a bit later than I thought because I swear I turned on my alarm for 7am and must have just either woken up early and turned it off then or just forgot about it going off. But Luke also cooked breakfast today and his poached eggs were very good this morning - I think he's done a way better job than I have so far (but let's keep that a secret bc I know he's behind on reading the blogs) ;)
After brekkie, we started on the errands and cleaning and we actually got a lot done before 10am, I was impressed, we usually have something left to do the next day but I just kinda of collapsed on my bed after because I was so tired from doing lots of the cleaning. We share it equally most of the time but sometimes I might need a little extra help or other times Luke so we try help each other out where we can. Which, is super important in a relationship and especially so when you live together and f*ck traditional gender norms, we can throw those in the bin for sure. Then Luke went off to cricket and I've been working on some of my social content like some videos and editing and whatnot. I've also uploaded a vlog today - which isn't amazing but I made a poll on Insta and that's what people have wanted so I'll link that "here" once it's done processing.
It's an average day in my life - stream-of-consciousness style. I know I've got a lot of people to compete with online but I'm really happy learning a whole new skill and helping get my confidence up in front of a camera. Making videos is actually really fun and something I've always wanted to experiment with. So I hope you enjoy! I've got some other ideas up my sleeve too so stay tuned. Eventually, I'll get some more structure of when I upload vlogs and when I upload guided meditations. I also want to be super open with living with chronic health conditions like IBS because they're so misunderstood in society. Like just take 10 minutes out of your day to understand it. Grr.
I also managed a really small walk today and am hoping I can attempt a workout tonight or at least get another walk in, we shall see how we go and whether the weather holds off or not. I forgot to talk about the weather! Oh no! Melbourne weather is SUPPPPPPEERRRRR humid today and there's meant to be more rain and thunderstorms but the rain hasn't come yet so it's just overcast and muggy and gross outside.
I'm still feeling pretty average about myself this afternoon. I don't know what it is. It's annoying. Sometimes though, I think it's really important just to sit with a feeling. Luke's also going to a wedding tonight so I have no idea what I'm going to have for dinner and that's probably stressing me out for no reason.
So I'm gonna end the blog there and go back to chilling but I hope you enjoyed today's daily rambles about not much tbh! But I'll see you tomorrow!
For today's question, I want to know, if you had to name one thing that makes you stand out from others, what would that be? Let me know in the comments below! For me, I think it's that I'm much more dedicated and hardworking than others perceive me as. A lot of the time people will label me as "lazy" but they don't see the health problems in the background OR they don't see how much work I put into something. When I want to succeed at something, I promise you I will put in the work, no matter how hard it is.
Okie byeeeeee! Much love, Ash xx
The amount of useless nonsense that's in my head makes me great at trivia nights (and hosting them too 😁)